My journey

I feel like I'm in a constant state of restlessness. I get bored so easily with what I do. I want to find some sort of footing where I'm at right now, but it seems to elude me.

I have a tendency to not stick to something -- be it a hobby, course of study or interest -- because I'm tired of it before it even had a chance to fully grow or develop. (Case in point: I had started out wanting to study law at uni, but two months into it I knew it wasn't for me 'cause it was -- as you might've guessed -- too boring. I switched to journalism and was tempted to change my major many times throughout the next four years but didn't because I did not want to start from scratch or end up graduating a year late.) But I'm not a quitter. I will see something through if I have to even if I don't like it.

I find myself impatient to move on to the next thing on my list. I don't set any long-term goals, because the thought of working towards only one thing for the next five years of my life is absolutely unappealing. And knowing me, my plans will change so much in that course of time that it'll be almost impossible to establish one plan to stick to.

I like change. In fact, I thrive on it. Some people have told me that I should find my direction in life and work towards building something of it, rather than "float through life". But you know what, I find floating through life a heck of a lot more desirable than going down one straight path. And really, what is so wrong about that? I'll admit that it probably is wiser to choose one thing and pursue it. But that hasn't been my lot in life, and I am fine with it. I don't feel the urgency to have it all figured out, and I'm just gonna take it one stride at a time. Plus, my heart is not ready to settle. Maybe in a few years I'll have all the restlessness worked out of my system, but until then, I will continue to explore my options.